To those who have been waiting to see my new post, thanks for viewing and your concern. (:
Not that i didnt want to blog, but i seriously got not enough time to blog. Well. I am so busy working now. Almost the whole week, i am fully packed. Wake up, prepare, work, slack and home..That's my everyday routine last few weeks.. But now it's different.. I have a new job instead of delifrance. ((: Im working as a promoter to promote people to buy cakes. COOL YEA?! ((: and i have to work from 1pm to 9pm everyday and there's transport fees too. Well the pay is soooo much better than delifrance and when during the off days, i will go back to delifrance and work. So, basically, im working everyday... 5 days being a promoter and 2 days being a delifrance staffs. LOL. Though it's rather exhausting, but i really learnt alot of things. I enjoyed the busy life of mine. Perhaps it's just for a while. HAHA. maybe not?? hopefully. Hmm. After blogging, i still have to rush to work at delifrance. Do visit me. HAHA. and i cant wait for tomorrow's new job. Heh. I am going to have loads of $$$ in my bank soon. YOOHOO~! And next year, i am going to settle down for my o'levels already. After my o's next year, I am going to work at zara or hotel. YEA! that's my target and my birthday is arriving soon! You guys know what to do right? Hehe. Im 16 soon! Here i come NC16!~ LOL. Too lame yea. HAHA. But i really should have some offdays for myself. I should consider. And i dont even have time for tuition, family, studies and friends... IM SORRY. Hmm..3rd to 5th dec is my nacli camp..gotta enjoy myself to the fullest. 7th dec is my pay day! 8th dec is NCO'S bbq day! and 22nd dec im going MALACCA((: OMg! alright i really got to go. that's all and bye guys. Enjoy for hols and take care.

26nov07 will be remembered by me.
it's the day i feel loved once again.
thanks boy for taking away my pain and hurts.

well. yesterday woke up at 11am. msged with boy the whole day. aww. he's really sweet. then met up with yubing and sharon. surpose to do hws..but ended up we didnt..yubing got some relationship problems and i really hope she will be happy soon. she left the earliest and left me and sharon at mac chit chating. Then around 4.20pm, i headed to work. I dont know why there were so many staffs yesterday and marcia and kimberly have to go back. zzz sians but they waited for us to finish our work till 10++ lor. thanks. and after work, me, marcia, kimberly and felix went to slack slack awhile. then headed home to sleep. then that's all. haha. anyway, i found out things about my dearest meimei. aww.. last long girl! jiejie is happy for you oh. ((: and im going out with my boy today. going to watch my fav movie. ((: hopefully it will be a pleasant day. and meimei dont you go and catch us! lol. kay lah. i shall end here. byebye.

being loved is a blessing...

A story has it's ending. But a new story begins soon..

i was blinded to have love you and i regretted. This time i had finally gave up. Im proud to say that too. Well. im glad everything is over. i found my new love already anyway. is you who dumped me. dont you regret. you will never find someone who love you as deep as how i loved you as before. i swear that. Two years..Finally everything is over..goodbye is the word i must say to you. Thanks for all the hurts.

story ended. (((((((:

what a reliet..
thanks god you appear again to save me from all these hurts.
thanks boy... ((((:

I know my blog is a little dead but no choice lah. I just dont have much to say.Mood swing-ed here and there. Sort of scary. DOTS. You can see how high am i, but you will never realise how much i bleed INSIDE. Why do i seems to be keeping everything to myself? it doesnt seems to be natural for me. I dont know why either. I could feel the numb-ness in me, the tired-ness of me. Let's talk about today. I was disappointed with my maths result. I failed. ): I ought to be disappointed because i let my mum and of course my tuition teacher down lah. I did studied. ): Then i cried during POA lesson. I couldnt understand and i guess im stressed. I ask mrs cheah but she shouted at me, as always. I really need a better POA teacher lah. At least someone who has patience to teach. Unlike her lah. Zzz I dont know what's wrong with that teacher lah. Sort of crazy. Zzz. Okay. EOY is starting on this thursday. Im sad to say..im not yet prepared.. But i just finished revising on my social studies, northern ireland. I love social studies so much more than history. Perhaps i find it hard to understand history. Because it's so complicating and i couldnt remember all the things that well. Haa. Walked home after school with SHARON,RAISHUN,YUBING,ZHIJIAN,SEAN,JINGJUN,TINGCHUN. talked loads of craps lah. Sometimes i really cant stand my own nonsense. Sigh. Well, Yingjie had been complaining that i kept singing song and it's emo songs.

im singing.
ME: " WO KE YI REN SHOU NI BU GOU AI WO..."
YINGJIE: " WO BU KE YI REN SHOU NI ZHE ME CHAO LE LAH.."
CRAPS LAH~ HAA.

My dad just came back from operation. He looked damn weak lah. Sigh. heartbroken to see him like this. I hope he will get well soon. )):

&& bless me for my EOY. (:

i still miss you..badly..silently..

It's the 21th tomorrow. All i can say is..i miss you..

I watch you fade into the distance,
While I am here teary eyed,
and heartbroken.
I know I shouldn't be this way,
Yet in my heart,I hold a fear
Of losing you forever,
Without you I may not last.
The thought of someone else
Stealing your heart,
Brings me pain
,And loneliness.
I miss you too much,
Please come home lonesome,
Needing someone to hold,
So then I'll know I'm not the only one.

Here's something meaningful.
zuo ren yi ding yao jing de qi huang yan, shou de qi fu yan, ren de zhu qi pian, wang de liao nuo yan, fang de xia yi qie. zui hou yong wei xiao lai qu dai diao xia lai de yan lei, ning ke xiang xin shi jie shang you gui, ye bu yao xiang xin ni na zhang po zhui. HAHA

I woke up, noticed that it's another miserable day.
Your face flashed through my mind, but slowing faded away.
i couldnt see you anymore, the darkness rise.
I cried when i opened my eyes. I cried while i was brushing my teeth. I cried when i bath. I cried when i get ready for school. I cried along the way to school. This is what i do before school actually starts..
I tried to focus in class but i find it so hard.
I tried to laugh..i tried to treat it as nothing has happened..i tried to be happy..but my heart is still bleeding.. it just hurts so much..When will storm be over? Sigh..mei you ni de mei yi tian..kuai le li wo hao yao yuan..i keep thinking of you..i really miss you..

YingJie: " why are you so sad?"
Angella: " fen shou le.."
YingJie: " wei she me?"
Angella: " guo le zhe me jiu..ta gao shu wo, wo men bu shi he.."
YingJie: " haiyoh. bu shi bu shi he..shi ta bian xin le.."
Angella: " ye xu shi bah.."

i broke down after that. i shed but nobody noticed. shi zhen de mah? nan dao ni zhang dao le jiu wo yao wo le mah? ni zhen de shi bian xin le mah? nothing can heal my wounds now. Im badly hurt..by you..

THE QUESTION IS WHY??!!! ))):

i know im gonna flung my math test today. Sigh..

After school..

Angella: " raishun, i dont feel like going home."
Raishun: " why? "
Angella: " Sigh. yi qian ta hai zai wo de shen bian shi, jiao wo hui jia, wo ye bu gu dan..ke shi xian zai ta yi bu zai..zuo she me, qu na li..dou shi gu dan de.. ): "
Raishun: " go home play games? "

blah blah blah..

i walked home alone. I hold my tears. But once i reached home.. sigh..i broke down.. again.. someone save me hao mah? ))))))))))):

wo bu xiang huo zai zhe yang de shi jie li.
wei she me zhe ge shi jie zhe me bu gong ping?
zhe ge shi jie zhen de hen kong bu..
i dont want to wake up..i dont want..it's hurtful and unbearable..

im trying to be strong already. im trying..so hard..

and i really must thanks many people for being there.
im touched. really touched. but... sorry.
thanks to yubing, haziq, raishun, liangzi, serena, yingjie,gladys,jerevien and most of all, simon and xiaoxiumai who kept cheering me up.
i will never forget you guys were there for me when im having my darkness. but im really sorry...

i do hate myself. i had done so much..i love you dearly and deeply..i had give you the best i can..i had tried to save this relationship..i tried so much.. but i still failed to keep you by my side.. why? why? WHY?! wo tao yan wo zi ji..yin wei wo mei you yong..shi wo zuo de bu gou hao mah? dui bu qi..wo bu wan mei..wo bu neng gei ni ni xiang yao de..wo hen shi bai..dui bu qi..dui bu qi..dui bu qi.. ))))))))))))))))))))):

wo bu shi yi ge wan mei de ren..ke shi wo shi zhen de hen ai ni..bu xiang shi qu ni..sigh..i believe nobody can love you as much as i do..

this song is what i kept listening to...

FEN KAI YI HOU...*

and here's the lyric.

xiang han ni
que mei gan kai kou
zui hou zhi you
liu zhe lei
kan ni zou
wo xiang wen
wo shi fou zhi yuan yi jiu zhe yang fang shou
ji ran wu fa wan liu
zhi hao jie shou
cong jin yi hou ni yao ji mo duo jiu
shui neng gei yu ni wo zhe ban de wen rou
ye xu shi duo yu le
ni li kai wo hui guo de geng kuai le
ke dui yu ruan ruo de wo
hui yi jiu zu gou
fen kai yi hou
mei dang xiang dao ni
jiu hui di xia tou
jin wo de shou
bu zhi guo le duo jiu
wo xiang xin ni ye hui you yi yang de xin suan nan shou
dou ceng jing shen ai guo shui
you shui neng she de
zai li kai ni zhi hou
xiang kuai le ye zhi shi yi zhong qiang qiu
yi ge ren zen me guo dou shi chou
dong de yong you que wei bi neng rang ni wei wo ting liu
zui hou zhi sheng yi han
la zhu wo bu fang shou
fen kai yi hou
mei dang xiang dao ni
jiu hui di xia tou
jin wo de shou
bu zhi guo le duo jiu
wo xiang xin ni ye hui you yi yang de xin suan nan shou
dou ceng jing shen ai guo
shui you zhen de she de
zai li kai ni zhi hou
xiang kuai le ye zhi shi yi zhong qiang qiu
yi ge ren zen me guo dou shi chou
dong de yong you que wei bi neng rang ni wei wo ting liu
zui hou zhi sheng yi han la zhu wo bu fang shou


sigh.. ni hui hui lai wo de shen bian mah? wo xiang ni..qiu ni kuai dian hui lai.. dear.. )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):

The question is WHY?!

Why are you doing this to me? I did no wrong. It's was just a little conflict. Why must you leave me? AGAIN&AGAIN! I really love you, cant you see it? If i really done anything wrong, im sorry. But you are at fault too. What can i do so that you wont leave me? I need you. You know how much i cant live without you. We went till this far..how cruel could you to just leave me here alone? i beg you. dont leave me, will you? i promise i will wait till your exams are over. But promise me that you will come back to me ke yi mah? i dont want to live in a fearful and darkness life. it's so terrible and unbearable. will you just spare a thought for me? i just dont want you to go..i love you..too much..that i cant live without you..my exams are nearing too..Dont do such things to me, i beg you. Nan dao ni zhen de bu yao wo le mah? im your babygirl..remember? remember you said you will take care of me till the day i die? where are your promises? i kept mine. But did you? i only hope for your return. Just tell me you'll come back and everything will be fine. is that so impossible? i just cant bear to let you go. i dont know what went wrong..i just want you back..dear, im sorry. come back to me, will you?

SIGH is the word i can say.

It's hurting and im getting so tired. Why must you keep repeating your mistakes again and again? did you even respect me?! You repeated your mistakes two times today! How am i suppose to forgive? Sigh. Can you please stop all these shit? stop pushing the blame to me! yes, you did say sorry. But get the fact that sorry cant cure any wound! And you just say sorry once eh.. it's your fault and you ought to solve it! but did you? you only know how to say sorry mah? you already know is your fault and why arent you giving in or doing sth about it? but instead you treated me like this! is it so hard to give in and hong me? dont you think you ought to do that? did you understand my feelings? Hais..Im too hurt by your love. is this love? sigh..i feel like just ending everything..)): will you treat me better and please think for me, will you? im getting so tired already.perhaps..i should not hold it so tight anymore..

okays. i cant imagine school is starting just tomorrow. OHMYTIAN~ i haven prepare, im not ready yet. im still in holiday mood. i still wanna play. lol. anyway, nothing much about today. i went for tuition early in the morning. i was late. hehe. && thanks LAOSHI for the gifts!((: i love it truck loads. Hmm. den went to simei to have lunch and after that went to meet MUMMY; tan su ping. LOL! Then went to trim eyebrows at chuplao. Then went to shop shop at fairprice and bought some stuffs back home. I always have fun with my MUMMY! I love her and i treasure her. ((: thanks for all the colours you brought into my life. && i bought chocs for my lil baby bun bun. BUT she dont eat..i dont know why.. )): i went home early today. im a guai bao bao!((: zzz lol. okay.. im off to..dont know do wad also.. :D haha. byebye. i miss my baby!

happy birthday to JANET!(:

I woke up at 9.30am and was so reluctant to wake up. Mum woke me up and ask me to go market with her and dad to have breakfast. And i follow lor. Then accompany mum to see doctor cos her legs are in pain. hmm. mum, get well soon! actually got tuition today at 1pm derh. i accompany my mum go see doctor and so didnt manage to go for tuition. And tuition is changed to tomorrow! Zzz hmm.. then afternoon do some homechores and after that meet baby go parkway meet janet, mum, dad and sinhui. Then we went to east coast to cycle. Sang birthday song and cake birthday's cake for janet. BEST WISHES! and poor mum fell and was injured, mum, becareful next time okay! haha. and poor sinhui fell too. TAKE CARE! and we went to lagoon to eat again today. yummy.. haha! then cycled back and went to arcade to play photohunt. afterall, i enjoyed myself today. aww.. school reopening on monday already.. kaox! )))): i dont like lah! mid year examinations on 27sept! Zzz GOD BLESS ME! haha. well.. i enjoyed the moment spending with my baby, dad and mom. i really do. (((: smiles! tomorrow meeting mum go out too..!! happiness... haha! byebye

baby; my one and only.
though we often have our conflicts, but at least we manage to pull through yea? And at least we can handle things better; so much better! muacks dear.

&&im not childish. Just that others dont know what we going through. So shut those comments. IM HAPPY THAT I PROVED YOU WRONG! you loser.

A GREAT DAY!(:

it's been such a long time since i last smiled and have fun. i really enjoyed myself with my dearest today. i really do, love. (: I met up with my boy at 9am and we headed to have our breakfast at YAKUN. We wanted to eat this together long ago but couldnt have the chance because my boy is a pig. he always sleep till late. (: then we went to watch RATATOUILLE(: it's nice and real funny okay. MUST WATCH! espercially with your love. HAHA. Then i went home to change my baggy cos it's spoilt and then headed to MP'S LIBRARY to study with DAD and MOM. didnt really study much nahs. dont like the place out there cos there's many people lah. argh. zzz. then we went to lagoon to have a big feast together. ((: along the way, i had so much fun with my boy. thanks for everything, love. after that DAD and BOY bullied ME and MOM! not fair derh. I WILL TAKE REVENGE! hiakhiak. ((: that's all for today. I LOVE MY BOY!

i love my family- (dad, mom, boy)...<3

ANGELLA NG WAN TING(:
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YELLOW,white,brown and black
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Butterflies-
#11 #21 #27
skeletons and crown(:
basketball;herlife
biking;water sports;sun-tanning
LOVE to be LOVED by YOU*

GROW TALLER! =P
-disneyland-ing with my love
-cablecar-ing with my love
-birthday-ing on a YELLOW cable car(:
-PUMA bagg
-tanned
-chopper and a yellow harro
-sunglasses
-things that consists of crown and skull
-build a house by a beach and live happily ever after.
-a big big pooh

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